I woke at dawn feeling no better about what had happened the night before. I made the decision that it would be best if I stayed out of Duo's way for the next few days. I imagined there would be some kind of confrontation between us about what I had seen and I really didn't want to talk about it.
What Duo did was his business and if mentioned, I would surely have let him know that I thought it an inappropriate thing to do out in the open. I could see my comment taking things in a nasty direction.
Yes...it would be better to just avoid contact with him until all of this blew over.
Duo didn't show up for breakfast the following morning. I attributed his absence to one of two reasons. He either was sleeping in or he was trying to avoid me. I figured that the party had probably lasted well into the morning hours and that he was most likely nursing a hangover to boot. But I hoped it was the latter, since I was still no where near ready to face him.
Cynthia had come to the same 'sleeping late' conclusion and mentioned it over breakfast. I was glad she had, it gave me the perfect excuse for me to skip my morning swim, citing that my presence out there could disturb his needed rest. I decided that I'd take a trip into town today. There were some things I needed to pick up but above all I just needed to get out of the house before Duo showed up.
I opted instead to take the thirty minute drive to the mall. Crowded places and shopping weren't high on my list of desired entertainment and so I rarely ventured there. It required a fair amount of concentration to determine when I'd last been here. I grimaced as I recalled it. It hadn't really been that long ago, it was only the previous summer in fact...while trying to escape from last summers help. I was beginning to sense a pattern here and it was one that I found I highly disapproved of.
While the two instances were as different as night and day, my reaction to them was the same, I ran.
I ran from that girl because I disliked her and I was running from Duo because I liked him...and because of what had transpired the night before. The word coward instantly came to mind, but I wrote it off and settled on chalking it up to my total lack of social graces and inability to rationally deal with and confront my emotions. It wasn't that much of an improvement over my initial thought...it might even have been worse.
I took the escalator up to the food court and ordered a large container of Boardwalk fries and made my way over to a table in the corner. My recent discovery required some thought and I decided this was probably a good a time as any to give it some. I dipped a fry into the small cup of vinegar and popped it into my mouth. How was I going to change this?
It was too late to worry about what had transpired last year, but there was still this year to deal with, as well as some kind of general lifestyle adjustment that was needed. I looked around the large open space, finding that mine was the only table that was occupied by a single person and for a moment I wished Cynthia were here with me. I wasn't sure what it was that I would say to her or how I would even begin to describe my dilemma. I inwardly smiled as I realized that she was probably very much aware of my numerous inadequacies and more than likely had a few words of wisdom to offer me on the subject.
I finished my fries and stopped at Staples on my way out to pick up some computer supplies before heading home to speak with her.
I entered the house at around two to find a note on the kitchen table. I picked it up and read it.
Went out for a while.
Duo was here twice looking for you.
Be back before dinnertime.
'So much for him wanting to steer clear of me.'
I set the note back down on the table and headed straight up to my room. Cynthia would be home in about three hours. All I needed to do was to avoid Duo until then, until I had a chance to speak with her. I was fairly confident that I could pull it off...until I heard a knock on the door.
'Or maybe not.'
"Heero? You in there?"
Tenacious...it's the only word that came to mind.
I stood and opened the door.
"There you are. I've been looking for you all day."
"I went to the mall."
"Can I come in?"
I blushed a bit, but stepped aside to allow him to enter. He sat on the edge of my bed and looked up at me, handing me the stack of CDs he'd borrowed. "I wanted to return these. Thanks."
"No problem." I took them from him and walked around the bed to return them to the CD rack.
"Listen..." he began.
'Please don't say what I think you're going to say.'
"About last night..."
I turned toward him and he looked....hesitant. "I'd rather not talk about it, if you don't mind." I continued putting the CDs away.
"Okay. But I just wanted to apologize."
I didn't look up at him. "Accepted."
"You don't even know what I'm apologizing for."
I looked over at him, he'd risen from the bed and was facing me with his hands on his hips. "Whatever it is, I accept. Is that all you came here for?"
"You are a piece of work, Heero. You know that?"
He was angry...and perhaps hurt. I couldn't see the expression on his face, I didn't want to.
"I don't even know why I bother trying to talk to you."
I could see out of the corner of my eye that he was crossing the room to exit and found myself wishing he would...and as fast as humanly possible.
He made no attempt to hide his anger. "Aren't you going to say anything?" he spat out.
'Definitely pissed off...'
I let out a sigh and turned toward him. "I reacted poorly last night and I should probably be apologizing to you." I couldn't tell by his expression if I'd said the right thing.
He took two steps forward, bringing him closer to where I stood. "I can understand your reaction. I should have been more discreet."
I was shocked by what he'd said and I merely nodded.
And then he grinned at me. "You were pretty damned embarrassed."
"I don't get out much."
He laughed and I felt myself smiling.
I smiled because I was relieved that the whole thing was pretty much history and because I found that Duo's laugh just affected me that way; a lot of what he did affected me that way.
"Is he your boyfriend?" I don't know why I asked that or even if it was appropriate...I just really wanted to know. I hoped he would answer me.
"I was a bit tipsy." He looked over at me. "No lectures please." He winked.
"Then why were you kissing him?"
He looked a bit surprised. "Like I said, Heero, I was feeling pretty good and...." He trailed off, like he wanted to say something else, but decided against it at the last minute.
"And?" I asked him.
He looked up at me. "And he was there..."
I nodded to let him know that I understood. I really didn't though and he somehow sensed that.
"I guess that's never happened to you...that you find yourself with someone 'cause the person you really want isn't there."
"Can't say that it has."
He smiled again. "I should be going."
I nodded again and followed him toward the door. "Maybe next time you should invite that person...the one you wanted." It seemed like a logical solution to his dilemma and I wondered why he hadn't thought of it himself.
He looked at me, the expression on his face more serious than I'd seen it since he arrived. "I did. You didn't seem interested."
He turned to leave. I watched him walk down the hallway and descend the stairs, my jaw pretty much slack the entire time.
'Did he mean what I think he meant?'
I closed the door to my room and sat on the very edge of my bed. I replayed his words over and over and over. There was no other meaning I could pull from them as many times as I repeated them.
I was stunned. He wanted me...
I talked myself out of the frenzy his statement had caused and sat on my bed, peering out the window to see him just entering the pool gate. I looked down at my hands to find them trembling slightly. "Well shit."
I laughed out loud at my reaction: gripping my knees tightly to still both hands. I tried but was unable to recall any other instance that caused me to have a similar reaction.
"What now?" I asked myself. The question didn't require much in the way of thought and I wasn't about to give it much.
There were only two facts that were relevant. One: I lusted after Duo. Two: Duo wanted me.
It was pure logic that dictated my next course of action. I stood and entered the bathroom, running a comb through my hair with little noticeable results and brushing my teeth.
I then exited the house and it wasn't until I was on the path to the guest house that I reminded myself that I had little experience in dealing with people one on one....and even less with sexual situations and here I was ready to tackle both without hesitation. It just wasn't something I did. I paused my step and realized that I'd allowed my hormones to take over and that I was thinking with my dick so to speak.
I nearly laughed out loud, it was high time I gave my brain a rest.
Duo answered the door with a wide grin. As much as he remained a mystery to me in so many ways, I could instantly tell that he knew precisely why I was there.
"Come on in." He smiled. "Something to drink?"
He headed for the kitchen and I closed the front door, following him into the small darkened room. He was standing in front of the refrigerator, the dim light from inside it highlighting his form, bent at the waist and peering into it. I allowed myself to admire the view for as long as it lasted.
"I have beer and ummm...beer," he told me, turning to face me. "I need to go shopping," he noted with a smile.
"Water is fine."
He got two glasses and added ice to both and turned on the faucet to fill them. I took the glass as he offered it. "Let's go sit down."
I nodded and followed him into the living room, seating myself at the opposite end of the couch. He grinned at me and moved closer, sliding effortlessly over the smooth leather surface. "Don't worry I won't bite..." He smiled. "...not unless you ask nicely."
I gave him a wide eyed look and he laughed nervously. "I'm kidding."
Somehow...I didn't believe him.
"So, what now?" I asked.
"I dunno, Heero. What did you come here for?" His tone was very serious.
I wondered if he expected me to say it aloud. I thought it was pretty obvious, but he remained silent and so I spoke. "I thought you wanted to kiss me." It sounded ridiculous as I said it.
He regarded me carefully. "I do. Is that what you want? Why you came?"
I nodded, trying to remain outwardly calm despite the fact that my insides were churning.
"You don't have much experience, do you?"
I think I might have been trembling. "It shows that much?"
He chuckled. "Yeah. Don't worry, we'll start out nice and slow."
He put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me toward him, stopping as soon as our thighs met. He leaned in, just letting his lips touch mine. "Just relax, Heero. I promise this won't hurt."
The next thing I knew, his mouth was pressed tightly against mine and his lips parted. I followed his lead and opened my mouth slightly, shocked as I felt his tongue slip inside of it. I must have flinched because he pulled back. "Everything okay?"
I nodded and his mouth was on me again, his tongue moving roughly against mine inside my mouth this time. It didn't take me long to get the hang of it and I reached up and buried my hand in his hair, pulling his mouth closer to mine and moaning as I deepened the kiss.
The sensations went right to my groin, bringing me to a full state of arousal. This was a fairly new experience for me. I had engaged in kissing only once before, but it was nothing like this, it paled in comparision.
Our hunger was equally matched and there was no clear victor in the battle our tongues engaged in. Duo pulled back minutes later and laid his head back against the sofa. "Wow." He was grinning. I couldn't help but join him.
"So I did okay?" I asked.
He turned toward me. "Oh yeah...more than okay."
"Then why did you stop?" I didn't want to, it didn't seem to me that he did either.
He smirked. "Oxygen."
"Ahh...." I mused, relaxing back onto the couch beside him.
I closed my eyes and thought about the kiss we'd just shared and the kiss I'd seen Duo and that guy engaged in. I could still see a vivid picture of the two, Duo's knee bent and in between his legs as his hips pressed the others body against the wall. As incredible as the kiss we just finished was, I knew there was more...and that he was holding back with me. I didn't want him to.
"I want you to kiss me like you kissed him."
He looked over at me, apparently surprised to hear those words coming from my mouth. I was a bit taken back that I had the nerve to say them. Duo seemed to have this weird effect on me....I decided I'd worry about it later. I'd fantasized too many times about this to let this opportunity pass. "You said that you wanted it to be me."
"I did, Heero...I still do."
He stood and took me by the hand, pulling me into the hallway. I had barely made contact with the wall when I felt his mouth and the full weight of his body suddenly pressed against me. It felt so much better in real life and I reached out, wrapping my arms around his waist. His tongue forced its way into my mouth and his knee hit the wall between my legs as he thrust his pelvis against mine. I could feel the bulge and heat of his erection on my hip and was fairly certain he could feel mine on him as well.
He shifted his weight and rubbed his erection against me as he moaned into my mouth. I gasped and pressed mine to his thigh in much the same fashion.
The sensation was incredible and I knew if we continued like this for much longer I'd come in my pants. I broke the kiss against Duo's will and pushed him back with my two hands on his chest. The both of us were flushed and panting heavily. He looked beautiful like this, so erotic....and I was fast losing control.
"I want to make you come, Heero," he whispered, rubbing his hand over my arousal. The sensuality in his voice alone made me shiver. I leaned my head back against the wall again and closed my eyes. His hand started to stroke me through my jeans, one finger teasing just the tip of my arousal and I could hear myself moaning. It was slightly embarrassing. I must have blushed.
"It's okay, Heero...just go with the feeling," he told me softly. "I like hearing you moan."
Unlike me, he knew exactly what he was doing. I was totally helpless and in dire need of release. I reached down between us for his cock, stroking it slowly but with a firm touch as he was doing to me, shivering as my hand moved over his hard flesh.
I was about to come when his he removed his hand and pulled mine away, thrusting his erection against mine and kissing me roughly. I tightened my grip on him and pulled him toward me, grinding my length onto his. We lunged forward with equal desperation, rocking our hips upward with a pounding rhythm and pulling back simultaneously as we prepared to climax. It hit me first and I let out a shrill cry, pushing the length of my pulsing cock against the heat of his. His body shuddered moments later as he began his release, his voice loud against my ear as he groaned in pleasure.
He stepped back after a few awkward minutes and gave me a sly little grin. "Feel free to use the bathroom."
Once inside the small room, I locked the door and leaned against the wall, looking down at the dark wet spot on my shorts before closing my eyes.
There were a million things going through my head, the first being a replay of what had just happened. I wasn't surprised by it, it was what I came there for...at least the kiss was. The rest was a bit unexpected, but not unwelcome. The second thought was to clean myself up and get out of the bathroom and I did that in haste, allowing my third and final thought to turn to reality. I wanted more, the very idea made me hard again.
I knew enough about Duo to know that I was going to get it.